Coming Down

I know I've been writing you a lot lately… it's because I've been thinking about you a lot lately… I mean… I always do, but, gosh… the first few weeks of this month… So very much time spent with you… relatively speaking.

But you know, it's amazing to me… Right now, I have a firm date for the latest the next time I'll get to spend time with you will be. And then another after that. And another after that.

Beyond that it's up in the air again, but still. If you had told me a few months ago that we'd be filling up our calendars with time spent together, I wouldn't have believed you.

It's amazing. And I love it.

But that next date, right now, feels so very, very far away…

I know in reality it's only a few weeks, but lord I miss you…

(And I probably haven't helped myself by having the Stones singing about missing you on infinite repeat all day…)

It really is an addiction, isn't it? We had those few weeks there, starting with your BBQ, my silly little thing (which I hope you realize became what it was specifically so I'd have an excuse to invite you… though maybe next time I'll have to come up with an idea that doesn't involve me being busy the entire time…), the camping trip. Oh, ⭐️. July was simply amazing.

I know I keep using that word. But there really is no other word for it.

But the buzz is wearing off, the realization settling in that we're back to just seeing each other when we happen to see each other for the next few weeks…

And I need to see you. I need your voice in my ear, your thoughts in my head… I need you. I need your presence…

How silly of me. A few months ago, a couple of weeks was nothing. But right now…

sigh

Well. I'll survive, I suppose. And who knows what lucky encounters I might get to have with you in the meantime. I know you'll be traveling for some of it, but whenever you're home… I'll keep my fingers crossed. And of course I'll be trying to do “our thing” as often as I can (perhaps tomorrow will finally be our day?). And maybe take a few extra evening walks here and there… and keep my eyes peeled for any and all new excuses to spend time together…

(fwiw, I was thinking earlier tonight that another game night could really hit the spot…)

sigh

I love you.

I miss you.

Yours,
♒️